It’s okay to not be okay

Girl by the ocean

Someday, somewhere, it just happened. The sun escaped to the back side of Ghirardelli  square. Those men sang a song while moving the direction of another cable car. At the intersection of Stockton and Sutter, some girls spoke tirelessly about all the deals some brands offered. A lady in a black suit passed by when you were trying to capture the waterfall falling to the ocean. Nobody noticed all that your eyes noticed. Nobody noticed the veil of sadness beyond your thick mascara and your artful persona.

Like a nightmare, it again came back to haunt your mornings. You felt guilty. You felt guilty for being not okay, not being your perfect self. You felt guilty for the nth time for not being able to fake a smile when everyone around you was hopelessly happy. Perhaps it was okay to not be okay. You were lost in the world of self-doubts.  You never liked to pretend. But you had to.

Even though you had the right to feel whatever it was there to feel. Unapologetically.

The world moved on at its own pace.

The evening sky outside your small window changed colors, sometimes pale pink, sometimes bright orange covering thick clouds. As if it had a mind of its own.

Someday, you told yourself not to hide behind that impeccable face that your world selfishly crafted for you. Someday you just felt like being your silhouette, little sad, far from light. In the world of too many ” should”s and ” supposed to be”s, you called it your best self-portrait. 

It’s okay to not be okay all the time. The warm August breeze whispered. You too have your own mind.


Just realized, it’s August already.

Author: Archita

Musings about life and photography.

8 thoughts on “It’s okay to not be okay”

  1. I hope today is better than yesterday for you. I hope you feel okay today. 🙂 Thank you so much for being such an inspiration.

  2. Oh Archita. I read it on a day I’m not okay and ashamed of it. It brightens my spirit. Thanks. It’s okay to be not okay sometimes. Wonderful post. I’m a big fan of your writing and you, of course.

  3. Hi Patrick, Most of the times okay is enough, because okay is mediocre and easy enough to achieve. Aspiration, grief, politics, happiness- everywhere. But I agree with you about happiness- Life’s too short not to be happy. 🙂

  4. Thought provoking. I must ask the question, what standard, or model, is used to measure what is okay? The reason I ask comes out of my last eight years which have taught me that life is too short not to be happy. Not that being happy is easy, just that our culture makes life too complex. Maybe I’m just thinking too deep…

So what do you think?

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: